Tuesday, February 22, 2005
After 5 months of driving lessons in the driving school (not including the 3 months and money spent on private classes), 1 test failure, $2000+ spent (from my own pocket), I finally passed my driving test and got my license to drive!!!
I was so prepared to fail after the warm-up session as I walked into the balloting room to get the test route and testor. Why? Firstly, do not ever drink coffee after lunch!! I was tired and unalert yet my eyes wide-open and my nerves were all in a bundle... Followed by which I brushed the curb in the circuit, almost crashed into a beginner vehicle which suddenly decided to move off when I was doing my right turn into the S-course, after he had stopped stationary. NEVER ASSUME, a beginner driver is giving way to you when he/she stops.. it's probably coz his psychomoto is sooo very bad, he managed to stall the vehicle in front of the yellow box and his just fumbling for the keys, gear shifts and clutch to start his vehicle. And I almost got stuck in the junction box when the light turned red. I wasn't careful or alert enough after the coffee(which I thought was suppose to perk me up), it really was time to pray and I just prayed for the anxiety to go away. Surely God had a bigger purpose for me even if I would keep failing this test and I'm sure he would provide (yupz, no money for more failures).
My next shock came when I got balloted to have the same testor who failed me the 1st time round!! My heart just sank, I'd better prepare myself for failure. Just at that moment it struck me that nothing ever happens by chance, I had wanted to give my testor a tract during my 1st test, but I had forgot to bring tracts that day. I quickly rummaged through my bag and realised I had the tracts "From Heaven with Love". God was working at that moment but I had no clue yet. I felt burdened that I really had to give him the tract this time, it's like God's making it up by arranging it to be so the 2nd time round. Suddenly, I did not feel that my results were as important as making sure I passed him the tract this time round. When I got into the vehicle my nerves and all were just miraculously fine. I was genuinely alert and careful, it was like the effects of the caffeine had suddenly worn off. Also, my warm up test route was my actual test route!!! Could you beat that? If not for the warm up, I wouldn't have known that there was going to be 2 roadworks along my test routes that required me to keep right even before the traffic junction as the road works were immediately after traffic lights.
To cut the rest of the story short, I passed with 18 points and passed my testor Mr Tan Kwong Moh the tract (which he was so glad to recieve, he actually smiled). I really wasn't expecting God to use this test in such a miraculous manner. Well, praise God from whom all blessing flow!!! It was yet another experience to learn of God's faithfulness to His children if we'll only place Him squarely first and walk in righteousness!
Thank you God!
Monday, February 14, 2005
I'm currently re-reading "Boy meets Girl" by Joshua Harris as I promised myself after the 1st read that I'll pick up this book once again a few months later to study it in detail. There's just so much in this book that makes it worth the time to pay attention at what God has to say about courtship and romance. And what better day to start then on Valentines itself.
For the next few day's I'll be posting a series of thoughts and reflections from reading parts of the book, by chapters.
Made for each other.
I'm equally amazed by the story of love that Adam and Eve would have shared as first man and first woman. Would they have gotten everything right the first time round? Did they ever get bored of another? Would their relationship be a model one for husbands and wifes?
Well, I believe that somewhere out there someone is made for me and I for her, specifically by the Creator. And I found myself identifying with the charactor Elanna when she told her grandfather, Adam, that it was easy for Adam to find love, because God only created Eve for him, but for us it's a confusing world out there with so many other people. Yet what the author wrote in reply spoke of a truth that I find myself always missing out on.
"It's not more confusing," he gently said. "It only seems that way because.
Our meeting was 'easy', as you put it, not because we were the only human kind,
but because in those sweet days before we disobeyed, we implicitly trusted the
Maker to bring that was good"
It's always about waiting upon His will, isn't it? Sometimes the heart is anxious in looking for that special someone to share a lifetime with, that we sometimes 'jump the gun' and miss out on what God has best for us? I give thanks for the longings of the heart, that God has given me. After all He did say that "It is not good for man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him." ~Gen2:18
My Valentines prayer would be to wait upon His perfect will, for the best, and not settle for even second best, while trusting "For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly."~Psa84:11
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
I'm not a someone who'd write a dairy much less keep log of many things goin on in my life.
Truly, there's so much in life that sometimes to sit down and write some would be some what of a waste of time I thought.
To mark this post with some wise words from none other wiser then King Solomon himself, Ecclesiates Chapter 1:
Perhaps all is Vainity... and I won't be posting much or at all once the initial fizzle of fascination or pure curiousity pales out to the other vainities that have captured my mind.
2Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.
3What profit hath a man of all his labour which he taketh under the sun?
4One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh: but the
earth abideth for ever.
5The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down,
and hasteth to his place where he arose.
6The wind goeth toward the
south, and turneth about unto the north; it whirleth about continually, and the
wind returneth again according to his circuits.
7All the rivers run into
the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come,
thither they return again.
8All things are full of labour; man cannot
utter it: the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.
9The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is
done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.
10Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath
been already of old time, which was before us.
11There is no remembrance
of former things; neither shall there be any remembrance of things that are to
come with those that shall come after.